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(no subject) [Oct. 3rd, 2005|01:37 pm]
screamsgosilent
Peace out yo!
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(no subject) [Oct. 1st, 2005|10:23 pm]
screamsgosilent
Fuck I need to change the way I go about things or the ways I keep thinking about every. I just know I cant keep doing this.
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lyrics i wrote [Sep. 30th, 2005|07:20 pm]
screamsgosilent
While staring at my walls, I can't sleep again. And you know its all my fault for letting you go. I can't complain it was all up to me. Now I am gonna explain I dindnt mean to hurt you and how I've change. Dont tell me everything is gonna be ok, you ar just better then me in that way. Beleive me I wanted to treat you right. I'd like to say I'll Make it up, tell you I love you but its just so damn hard when in yourself you have no trust. Its all my fault for letting you go. I cant complain it was all up to me. Now I am gonna explain I dindn't me hurt you and how I've change. Some day you will see how much I've changed, and we'll be all we ever wanted to be or ill write it down in red how I'll never fucking quite.
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(no subject) [Sep. 23rd, 2005|11:20 pm]
screamsgosilent
Well alot went since on sat. I re-experianced the greatest thing in the world. I kissed Christine its been almost a year sence the last time I did . I was amazing. It took me right off my feet. I saw the same look on her face as it was alomost a year ago. eyes shut looked like i took her last breath. she seemed like she was on this cloud floating nothing letting her down even when im pulled away. I missed her so much. Still do and always will. what we had was real, more real then any thing Ive ever felt. We never fought, was able to be with eachother and our friends and have a great time. I wishe everyday i wouldnt of fucked up that one time because I missed out on the greatest person to step into my life. she was suportive of me. She let me be me and didnt bitch because well she is/was like me. im gonna go out on a limb and say shes my soul mate no matter what. She has my heart and I have hers. Saturday prooved it. I do not regret it.



Heres a great memory I found "then when i got home i got the nerve to call and talk to Jeff, it took me about 20 mins to do it. i dont know why im being so shy but i was happy when i called him, he is a very nice guy. i think we are going to hang out 2marro. well i hope he wants to hang out at least."



I wish she would come back suprise me when im sleeping like she did a year ago greatest view to wake up to.
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(no subject) [Sep. 21st, 2005|06:39 am]
screamsgosilent
Wow. I have this huge smile on my face from ear to ear. Dreams do come true. let hope ill get my blessing.
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(no subject) [Sep. 18th, 2005|12:28 pm]
screamsgosilent
I kinda hate life right now. I guess you can say im mad at the world. Some friends are just to fake. Girls are evil. I dont like my dads. Work sucks. Car is a peace of shit. I dont hang out with matt much anymore. I drink mre. smoke more. get the urg to do drugs. I need energy. My body hurts. I wish I was skinny and good looking. These are just random thoghts have a nice day.
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(no subject) [Aug. 4th, 2005|04:19 pm]
screamsgosilent
Less then a month left. Im nerviouse.
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Girlfriend Application [Jul. 28th, 2005|01:23 am]
screamsgosilent
WANTED
Nice sweet girl somewhere near the 18-25 age range for loving romantic relationship with a terribly lonely 20-year-old guy

JOB RESPONSIBILITIES
Tolerating/enjoying my company on a daily basis
Telling me that everything's okay when I fervently believe that it's not Holding my hand and helping me face the outside world
Loving me for what I am as well as what I am not
Teaching me exactly what it means to be a boyfriend
Being there

WAGES/SALARY
All of my heart

MISCELLANEOUS BENEFITS
As many soft kisses as you desire Someone to listen
A shoulder to cry on A date for Valentine's Day
Someone to cuddle with while watching TV
Someone who still believes that holding hands is powerfully romantic At least one anniversary present per year
Opportunity for advancement
Flexible hours

WHAT NOT TO EXPECT FROM THIS POSITION
Sex (that benefit is included only with the promotion to wife)
Someone to push you around and control your life
Leonardo DiCapprio

APPLYING FOR THIS POSITION
You can apply for this position by getting to know me and expressing your desire to be considered (but make it painfully obvious because I am terribly naive). As well as filling out the questions listed below

Full Name:
Sex:
Age:
Location:
Birthday/zodiac sign?

Favorite food?
Least Favorite food?
Can you cook?
Favorite color?
Favorite music?
Favorite band?
Horror or comedy?
Fave movie?
Do you like rock concerts?
Have any tattoos? If so what and where?
Peircings/where?
How well do we know each other?
Do you have a good sense of humor?
Do you do drugs?
Drink?
Whats your religion?

How many boys/girls have been with?
Are you easily jealous?
What do you like best about me?
What don't you like about me?
Do u want to be my gf/bf?

Would you rather stay in or go out?
What features do you look for most on a guy?
Are you romantic?
On our first date what would we do?
Are you prone to drama?
Do you drive?
Job?
What makes you a good bf/gf?
What are some bad qualities you have?

Would you pinky swear with me?
Hold my hand?
Give me kisses?
Shower me with love?
Would you flaunt me?
Take pictures with me?
Be honest with me?
Keep me warm?
Hold me when I'm sad?
Would you share clothes with me?
Get piercings/tattoos with me?
Tell me secrets?
Take care of me when I'm sick?
Write me letters?
Take naps with me?
Have a song with me?


Thanks,
Jeff

Ps YOu can E-mail this to Jeff_Hays_84@hotmail.com
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(no subject) [Jul. 25th, 2005|09:04 pm]
screamsgosilent
Forget everything you said to me and that I said to you. Its dead now. Lies apon lies that is all you know. You cant be trusted no matter the changes you have made in your life because your whole life will change again and again. I dont think you lost and confused or broken, its a plan that you have planned out. Youll bring me into it knowing what it can do to me. Well guess what it will all come back to you and cut your flesh because youll be back these three words confused, scared, and alone. how can you keep doing this or is it going to kill you first before your maturity kicks in.

Ps the backbone is no longer there.
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(no subject) [Jul. 19th, 2005|10:31 pm]
screamsgosilent
Im gonna be happy either way
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